CHICCY - PINK & PRECIOUS

*Ahem*

A ridiculous time of the morning I know, but I have been so busy trying to organise my next career move, that the only time I get at my disposal is stupid o'clock when I am awake wondering if I am making the right study & job decisions.

There are a few other complex and challenging situations that I am managing at the moment, but they are not really my problems.  Without going into detail the extra demands are external-ish, more a case of supporting and assisting those I know (and in some cases are close to) because they can't cope with what life's thrown at them at the moment.  I always find it is a good distraction from ones own self indulgence to focus on, and become actively helpful to others who may have come to you in trust for advice or nurturing.

Situations like this pull your head out of your own backside and (in my experience) prevents woeful wallowing and self indulgence.  I prefer to be kept busy, as I tend to get bored easily, so being occupied is a good thing.  Equally, investing time and energy elsewhere with no agenda other than to feel a sense of reality and purpose can enhance your own sense of well-being.  If you have been able to improve or even just recognise/empathise/validate somebody else's negative situation by either supporting them, or resolving something positively that was impacting on their life it can only be a good thing.

I am seriously hoping to stop procratinating and to start practising buddhist meditation as I do need to train myself to incorporate time to replenish and switch off as well as learn how to relax and maximise my own well-being so that I don't burn out.

Since I started my blog here 6 yrs ago a lot has changed.  Not just with the site (sadly not for the better) but also with my situation.  I'll save it to gradually seep out in forthcoming posts rather than blurb it all out in one babbling go like I used to.

I have been diagnosed with Attention Defecit Hyperactivity Disorder in the past 18 months, which explains an awful lot to me, and has helped me to accept my quirks and foibles, so I don't see it as a problem and embrace it as part of my personality.  I do, however struggle to manage the constant state of alert.............hence being up at this time :-).

 Is anyone who knew me from back in the olden days still out there??????!

5.5.11 03:47